So my husband is deployed right now. Has been for the last 4 months and my LO is now 3 months.

I went to my home state to be with my family so I wouldn’t have to be alone after I delivered.

(My parents are the only family I have.)

Anyways, my son and I went back to where we are stationed, 12 hours away btw. And someone broke into our apartment while we were home. I was screaming at him and had a baseball bat so he ran but they didn’t get him.

I went back to my home state after that because I was terrified!

This is where the situation gets sticky. My parents are gross. Like trailer is falling apart, there’s a hole in the roof, bugs are everywhere. Like i clean my little ones bottles soooooo much a day because there’s always bugs around. And they don’t clean up. Clothes thrown on the couch, the dogs aren’t potty trained. Etc. just envision “white trash”.

I just don’t know what to do. We can’t afford to break my lease and I don’t really have any friends left around to go to. And I feel like I can’t be like “hey mom and dad you’re disgusting so I’m leaving.”

Long rant but I just feel pathetic. I don’t feel like a good mama at the moment. I am grateful they’re letting us stay with them, I just feel like I’m at a loss.