First time posting—but I feel like this is the best place to get this out in the open and see if anyone else can relate.

Some background on me: I first got on oral contraceptive birth control at the end of 8th grade as a way to regulate my periods. I was terrible about taking the pill but stayed on it for about 6 years or so. I was sexually active in High School as well. I then tried switching to the Depo shot and got two shots before I decided to try giving my body a break and seeing if my periods would regulate on their own/I also got off anti-depressants as well and wanted to see what the norm was for my body. I have been off any sort of oral contraceptive/shot since then, so about 3 years now. I track my menstrual cycle with this app and am completely regular now yay :)

BUT— I have been in a committed relationship with my boyfriend of about 2.5 years and ever since we started dating my sex drive has been extremely low. I do take Adderall an average of 4 days a week and perhaps that has something to do with it? I’ve been on the same dosage for atleast the past 5 years.

I love my boyfriend very much and he worries that it’s because I’m not sexually attracted to him. Usually I’m just tired/lazy and I feel that I don’t allow myself to loose control or submit to getting intimate. I’ve considered whether my sexuality is the case, as I do masturbate every now and then to more female focused porn—but I don’t feel emotionally interested in women, or feel the desire to pursue women sexually.

Bear in mind I’m 24, became sexually active at a young age (I felt extremely guilty about being so sexual for spurts of time while in high school and would put off sex with my then boyfriend for lengthy periods of time). In college I was fairly active as well, but was not dating anyone seriously.

Before meeting my boyfriend I had a traumatic experience that lead to a misdiagnosis of Bipolar disorder and prescriptions for SSRI’s, lithium and mood stabilizers (I was on these meds for less than a year before weening off completely—as I do not feel or show symptoms of Bipolar disorder currently).

Sorry for the super long post—just wanted to be sure I got all the details out! Im just not sure of the cause of my low libido, if that’s the issue, and/or how I can become more comfortable with sex and enjoying it in a healthy way.

Any comments and advice are welcome :)