Hi ladies,

I had a miscarriage at 18 wks on 4th of July '18 and we needless to say we were devestated.. I also had an umbilical hernia while I was pregnant. I've been in and out of hospital, been in a lot of pain without able to take any meds because of the pregnancy. The doctors told me I needed surgery to fix the hernia but they wanted to wait till the baby was more developed. The last time I was in the hospital the did a scan when I came in on Monday, the baby was fine, when they did a second scan, on Wednesday the baby wasn't alive anymore. I saw it on the midwives face and when I saw the scan.. the ground disappeared from underneath me, my heart was broken.. I have no words to discrib it. I come from a broken family, my mother never wanted me and was open about it. This baby was my chance to start my own little loving family. We've been grieving, I had my surgery in September '18 and we've been trying again since. Have been keeping records of when we did bd, ovulation, taking my temp etc but no joy yet.. stopped smoking, taking extra vitamins. Not getting any younger either, nearly 35. I'm getting more and more desperate which doesn't help, I know.. But we so want to get pregnant!!

Thank you for taking the time to read my message, just feeling so down and I don't know what to do anymore.. just needed to vent.. 😥 xx