Many people don’t understand is being able to conceive and finding out your pregnant is truly a blessing. A lot of women take it for granted or don’t appreciate the fact that they can create life. I never knew what it felt like to feel empty inside until I had a miscarriage. Sept 8th I was so ecstatic finding out I would be having son. I thought about trucks sports dinosaurs and etc. i was telling all my family and friends at that point because I knew my chances for a miscarriage had decreased. I will never forget Sept 17 the worst day I’ve experience. Feeling pressure and not knowing it was contractions and finally sneezing only for my water to break afterwards I knew after that was it I wasn’t meeting my son. I got rushed to the hospital in the ambulance aT 5am then a D/C was performed all I could remember is waking up covered in blood and feeling empty inside. No more movements no more planning for the baby’s arrival. I literally felt numb I didn’t complain throughout my pregnancy being sick throwing up non stop but I would of rather continue to meet my son.

I apologize if some have different religion or faith but as I drove him crying in the pouring rain I asked god to show me a sign please that my son was safe. Sure enough he did. I had to lift myself up because I had other I was living for. Everything happens for a reason. Hopefully one day I can convince another health baby👶🏽🌈 I’m so scared now to try even though I have been TTC. I will never try and replace my son. I would like to expand my family but until then I know my son is in heaven at peace👼🏽