I don’t really know what this is considered

But when I was 15 I went on a date with a dude and we hung out in his basement. Long story short he tried to finger me and wanted other stuff but I didn’t want any of it.

But I never said no, I use to have severe social anxiety and never stood up for myself.

And then when I was 17 I had a date with a guy and he started groping me and lifted up my shirt and bra and did stuff to me. I wasn’t okay with that either and I just let it happen, he only stopped when I started crying and had a panic attack. I feel so embarrassed and ashamed that I let that happen and that I never stood up for myself.

In both of these I had let both guys know ahead of time through text that I wasn’t okay with doing anything at all besides cuddling.

I wasn’t good at speaking up in person.

Anyways I’m now 22 and 32 Weeks pregnant and I haven’t let the Dr check me down there for a heartbeat or whatever else. I literally can’t, I almost have a panic attack every time. I just can’t and I don’t know if its because of those situations from my past, they asked me if I’ve ever been sexually assaulted or raped and I said no. I don’t think that those situations count as those?

But I’m even more terrified the closer I get to my due date cause I know they’ll have to check me down there to see if I’m dilated and for delivering my baby.

I’ve been with my current bf for 5 years and he’s the only person I’ve had sex with, we waited over 2 years before we did tho. But he’s never pressured me to do anything I wasn’t comfortable with.

Any advice or what this would be considered?