unsure about 2nd baby

Emma

I have a beautiful 2 year old and my husband and I love babies and kids in general. we were thinking it would be lovely to have another so that lucie can grow up with a sister or brother. but I must confess we are both 42 years old and looking after a newborn (who was very difficult ) and a toddler has been extremely difficult and I'm worried I won't be able to cope. There are nights when I feel confident but on nights for example when my toddler takes ages to get to bed or wakes up in the night, I think I must be completely mad to want another. I feel so conflicted and the thought of not having another makes me sad. but it's now or never because of my age. any advice is most welcome.