I had sex on my peak ovulation day according to Glow. I am not on birth control because it messes with my hormones BAD. I do not use a condom because I am allergic to latex. You may have seen the post about me having sex with two different guys. I get tested regularly. These guys are not strangers to me. YES it was very fucked up of me to choose who I was “attracted” to instead of not choosing the actual father. So I back tracked my mind.

Back story: I have borderline personality disorder. Sometimes it causes me to make really stupid decisions and think really messed up thoughts.

Back to the story: Now I have no idea if I’m even pregnant because that’s not a complete worry yet. And I don’t wanna sound like a messed up individual by saying “I may have an abortion”. Not for selfish reasons, but for medical reasons. I CANNOT go off my medications for my bpd. That will result in me going to the psych ward not once, not twice, but three times.

I know I should’ve been more careful and I know I’m not being responsible. Trust me I KNOW. I go to therapy every week for a reason.