So sometimes I feel really bad for not being a virgin until marriage. I feel like I’m not a good person because my mom is a very religious person and believes strongly in marriage. Even though she had me before she was married to my dad, who was in jail until I was six.

Anyway my bf is the first actual person I’ve had sexual relations. There have been attempts in the past but I was never able to go through with them. When I first started having sex with him, I was already checked for every disease before having sex. Then after a few months I went to go get my lady parts checked to see if I don’t have breast cancer or cervical cancer. They even checked for stds. The test came back negative which was awesome. The other reason why I feel down is because it wasn’t even three months of dating when we had sex. It was a few days. I’m trying not to feel bad but it happens every now and then.