I have nwbwe been pregnant before and I am ttc. I've been trying for 2 1/2 years. I've wanted to be pregnant soooo bad before I started actively trying so now it feels like ivw been waiting forever.

Anyway, every month I start symptom spotting and think to myself this could be month. I get excited about my potential bump, and ultrasounds and feeling my baby move. And then I get scared that when I do end up pregnant my brain won't be able to fully process it. Like I'll be so overwhelmed that I'll literally go crazy. So scared that I second guess if I want to be pregnant or should I just adopt. Ik part of this is because of my biological mom. She got pregnant with me and after she had me seemed to have a mental break down and me and my other 2 siblings went to stay with our dads and they raised us. (My dad's bestfriend raised me I call her mom) My biological mom never got well enough for any of us to move back with her. I'm so scared I'm going to end up like her. What does it feel like when the baby moves. I just feel like my mind will be like wtf. I want to feel them.move and kick but I don't know how to cope mentally. Does anybody else get overwhelmed about feeling there baby move?