I just got an update on my son's heart valve donation. They are unable to use them. They tested positive for bacteria. She said it happens with donations sometimes. She said they do their best to keep everything sterile but it's not always possible. I've been waiting almost 9 months for this call. In my mind it was going to be different though. I played it in my head that I would be told he was going to be able to save someone else's life. It was helping me in a way to feel a small part of him would live on no matter how small that part maybe. He had so much more to offer this life and I thought this would be his last gift to Earth. I'm so broken and confused. This gave me some kind of reason for him to be taken away from me. To feel his purpose was to save someone else from such tragedy. Now I'm just blank. What was all this for? His body already lies under the ground where it doesnt belong. And now what his donation is just medical waste? I'm so angry and hurt.