And I/we failed again.

((Heavy sigh))

We have a beautiful, smart, blessed son... I’m very, very grateful for my blessings and accomplishments.

But c’mon...

You know how people say to give up and it’ll happen? How do you give up when you know your cycle? Do women that have been monitoring their period almost every month since they were 12, been trying to conceive since 18, and have done almost everything to conceive for almost twenty years... just stop noticing if or when they had or didn’t have a period when they decide to “give up”?! I don’t understand. Sorry just venting. Being 35 and practically out of my fertility window (given my diminished ovarian function) makes me feel like it’s the final push for trying. It’s been a few months since we were with the fertility specialist. Maybe I’ll make an appointment to discuss if my numbers indicate we should give up.