These 4 days have gone by fast. I’m starting not obsess over getting pregnant any more. I’ve been so deep in it and allowing it to control my days that I’ve put on so much weight. No more! Will I test for opk? YES. I have 4 ttc apps. I’ll no longer put in every symptom and mood. Will I log the days we have sex and AF? Yes but I will no longer over analyze every symptom and feeling I’m going through. If apps reminds me I need to test I’ll test but I’m done going into 4 apps and reading everyone’s struggle and looking at every rainbow baby post and BFP post crying and wondering when will it be my turn.

It’s time to get back into the gym. It’s time to feed my mind, body and soul with the love and care it needs. It’s time to do things that I use to love. It’s time to enjoy the sun and long hikes and smell pine trees. It’s time to pour into myself the love I deserve. God has a plan for my family. I have to trust in the process. 🦋