Hi Guys,

I have suffered baby fever for almost a decade.

My husband and I have been married for almost 6 months. We started our TTC journey in January, and have not had any success. I know that it has been only 2 months, but we anticipated that it would happen right away. That is why we didn't start trying until January. Another reason we didn't start right away is because my husband kept telling me i had "time" and that my eggs aren't going bad (which i know) because i am only 29; but my Husband promised me a baby before I turn 30. I will turn 30 in January, and since we didn't get pregnant in February we are now trying for a November baby. So, i am feeling pressure. I am feeling a little depressed about this situation, all i want is a baby. My husband and I had a 2 year engagement because he wanted to wait to have a baby.

I feel like a failure. I feel like he doesn't understand how much I want to have a baby. I feel resentment toward him because if it doesn't happen by April, me having a baby before I'm 30 isn't going to happen. I know it sounds crazy, and childish, but this is the way i feel. We also told everyone that we weren't going to wait to get pregnant after we got married, so it's in peoples' heads. I want him to support me and comfort me. I’m not close with my mom so I don’t want to tell her how I feel, or that we are having problems. I feel alone.

There were also two other weddings in my family last year and both of those women became pregnant immediately. This makes me angry, and my husband doesn't understand why.

It seems like every day people are calling me and telling me their pregnant. Earlier this week someone sent me their "announcement video", and today someone gave birth to their baby. I just feel like "when will it be my turn?"

I am also concerned about not being able to get pregnant. I growing up am surrounded by women who suffered with fertility issues. So i worry, will that be my fate? Two aunts, a cousin, my grandparents (so they adopted), my boss.... Its a large percentage of the significant women in my life.

I have genetic testing and an ultra sound to make sure I’m good. Everything is fine. I even went to meet with a genetic councilor.

So, I try not to think about baby fever.

But its hard. My husband doesn't understand.

Today, i have had 4 unrelated incidents of people asking me if i was pregnant. And, that hurts. I don't take it as if they are calling me fat, but its a reminder of your a married woman, your almost 30, and your not pregnant yet. My heart breaks.

I need a good response to all these people asking if i'm pregnant. Something smart, and witty, no cursing because its mostly at work that these things come up.