Feeling discouraged

My fiancé and I have been trying for a few months. After another negative test, I’m feeling really discouraged. I tell myself that it will be happen when it’s supposed to happen, but damn it, it’s still hard. I started to feel myself lose hope and give up. However, sitting here thinking, I’m telling myself nope, fuck that! I’m not going back into a depression. I refuse to give up. This will happen for us! All of us, one way or another. God has a plan for me and while I’m not sure what that is, I believe in it. Bless us all.