I am unhappy...I think.

I have been with my boyfriend and his daughter for 5 and a half years. His daughter is 6.

We have been thru everything.

Fights and financial lows. Abortion and being diagnosed with HIV.

He is in love with me so why do I feel unhappy.

I love him but i like someone else a lot.

I’m so confused.

I don’t know how I feel.

I feel stuck because of his financial issues right now. I feel obligated to help him out because he doesn’t have anyone else. No family. No friends. And I feel stuck because of the HIV. I mean, I can never tell the guy i like about that so that won’t ever happen anyway.

And I feel stuck because whenever I talk about how I’m unhappy and maybe want to end things he asks me what am I going to do about getting a place? (He lives with his mom and was depending on me to move out with him) and what will he tell his daughter...again! (We took a break before and he didn’t think I was going to come back, so he told his daughter I wasnt)

I feel like these are just manipulated ways of getting me to stay, even if it is unintentional.

How can I figure out how I feel?????

This drives me crazy everyday.