I'm so emotional I don't even know where to start.

Last night my grandpa on my fathers side passed away, I don't know how to feel or what to think. This man raised me, I was always at his house growing up. My grandma found out a month ago that my grandpa had lung cancer, I knew for 3 days. My aunt and I were talking today and the lung cancer was stage 4; she told me that along with the lung cancer he also had prostate and brain cancer. Every time i think of him I get emotional and upset.

Went out with the bfs family to try to get out of the funk, didn't get my mind off my granpa but i got food.

As we were eating my mother calls ne and she is hysterical. I instantly have a bad feeling in my gut. I asked her what was going on and what's wrong, the next thing she said was that my great grandpa passed away tonight. The tears come in and there is so many. Two losses a day apart, one from each side of the family. My mind is in shambles as I don't know what to think or say or how to feel. I'm almost to rock bottom. My heart hurts and my soul hurts.

sorry for the long post i just dont know what to do.