Last night I found out my boyfriend cheated on me. He paid camgirls online for nude pics/videos. It was a while ago right after we moved cross country. We were always fighting and he said that he thought we were going to break up, classic self sabotage. He has trouble with communication and letting me in and Idk what to do. We were already on thin ice to begin with, and I’m utterly hurt. I love him so much and I want to try to make it work. I don’t want to be made a fool of, or to end up prolonging my pain but he’s the only person I’ve dated that I want a future with. We had plans to get married and everything and now I don’t see any of that. He was an absolute wreck when I confronted him, and he seemed genuinely sorry. Every single boyfriend I’ve had up until him I’ve cheated on, and I’ve been trying SO hard to not do that because I love him so much and I don’t want to jeopardize our relationship. I feel so betrayed and hurt. So far I’m giving him a second chance and if he proves himself worthy then maybe things will be ok?