Is this fair

My husband and I get into some huge arguments because he is always putting everything and everybody else before me. I am always the last resort. He spends time with all of his buddies and does what he wants before thinking of me.

Is it fair to me? He leaves me home alone on the weekends at night because he’s doing something or helping his friends. While I sit at home wondering why I’m not good enough.

Tonight I snapped and we got into a huge screaming argument because I have had enough. I’ve been telling him for a while how much I feel neglected but he hasn’t cared. So tonight I legitimately lost it. I was screaming and crying at him in the house and one of his friends was in our garage. I feel bad for doing that in front of his friends but I want my husband to pay me some attention and want to be around me more than his friends. I fear for if we have kids they won’t ever see him. So tonight literally everything I have been feeling built up and I snapped.