It's so hard keeping this secret 😭

I'm currently 9w4d and we've decided not to tell ANYONE until we hit the 20 week mark because of our 2nd trimester miscarriage that happened in November.

I keep looking for reasons to tell everyone, last week was my mom's birthday and I wanted to tell her because I didn't get her a gift. My son's birthday is coming up and I want to tell him because he's been begging for a sibling since he was 4!

But I don't want something to happen and devastate them all again. So we're keeping it secret and enjoying this stress free period.

Edit: One of the main reasons we aren't telling anyone is because both sides of our families are worries . Last pregnancy I was called and messaged every single day, and some times they'd show up at the house unannounced. Which I know it comes from a good place but it honestly stressed both myself and my husband out a lot.

The other 2 reasons are that I know I can't tell my mom without her telling everyone else, and I know she won't be able to keep it a secret from my son. My son is turning 8 soon and he was heart broken last time, he cried constantly and at one point blamed himself because he thought he was too rough with me when we played. So I want to wait as long as possible to tell him so it's less likely he'll have to go through that again.