So for the past 4 years the company that I’ve been trying to get on at hasn’t really had any openings, they usually hire within and they buy out other businesses and keep those employees so for the last 2 years I’ve kind of gave up on it. Well last May I got pregnant and I had my baby boy on Jan 27th this year. He just made a month old. Today I got a call back for another Interview and I’m pretty sure I’ll get the job. I have a lot of pull in the company. It pays really well $19/hr and has so many good benefits and I’d also get bonuses. Mon-Friday 7-5 off on weekends. Sounds wonderful right? It’s everything I’ve been wanting for 4 years. Except, now whenever I look at my baby I’m having a hard time jumping on the job. The job is 30 mins from where I live. They would want me to start on the 18th, I currently am a waitress and make my own schedule but this is not something I want to do forever, I’ll never be able to retire one day from waitressing. my husband works for the same company at a different location and makes pretty good money so what we have works for us, but the money would help. I’m home with my baby a lot and I LOVE IT! I don’t want to miss out on my baby being a baby and having to leave him with my mother in law 50 hours a week, I feel like I’ll miss out on so much time I’ll never get back, but on the other hand I will NEVER get this opportunity again. I’m so torn. My brain says that’s the right thing to do, my heart says stay close to home and spend as much time with my son as I can while he’s still little. I cried for like 3 hours going back and forth with myself about this decision. My baby just made one month old. Please help.

Pic of my sweet man and why I’m having the toughest time making this decision.