I sit here with this tiny article of clothing in my hand small enough to hide in my palm. I sit here with no tears left to cry no energy to speak and no desire to move from the spot I have sat in for hours. I have this little piece of clothing amongst bottles, rattles, bibs, and blankets...but still even after all this time there is no baby. I thought this would be it. This time I would carry this precious soul extension of me into the world but the universe had different plans. I thought maybe after my first miscarriage the gods would be kind and let me have this baby but again they had different plans. How much more time will I wait? How much more time will I cry and suffer. Mothers please cherish your children... give them one more kiss before bed. Let them have one extra cookie. Be more slow to anger. Cherish your children because they truly are miracles and blessings for some of us may never have the privilege to have any.

Rest In Peace to my first, Rest In Peace to my second ,and Rest In Peace to my last.