So I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Lately I feel like my mental health has just been getting worse and worse and it’s to the point where idk if it’s ever been this crazy. I have this giant issue where I always think something bad is going to happen. For example, the whole time i’m riding in the car i’m tense because I feel like we are going to crash at any second. When my husband leaves for work in the morning I stare at my phone until I get the “I made it safely honey” text that he sends every morning because I just get this guy feeling that something bad is going to happen. Anytime i go into a store or restaurant i’m constantly watching people’s hands and looking to see if anyone has a weapon stuffed in their pocket because i get a feeling someone might try and rob/ shoot up the place I’m at. I’ve also gotten to the point where I feel like I forgot how to have a conversation. It’s like other people converse so smoothly and sentences just roll right out of their mouth one after another. I, on the other hand, seem to struggle finding anything to say every time someone talks to me. It always just makes for an awkward situation. I even get like this with my husband sometimes and it makes me feel like things are weird between us. Which then helps me proceed to spiral down this black hole 🕳 and think that maybe me and my husband aren’t clicking anymore. But we are, it’s just me!! I love my husband dearly it’s just that I have been in the strangest place mentally that it’s like i’ve forgotten how to, idk, be a human??

I know this is probably a jumbled mess I just have a hard time putting my feelings into words, or really anything into words at this point. Anyone else experience things like this?