Body issues until now!

Patricia • 250514 ♥️ 180718 💍 260719 👧 Oct. ‘21 🤰🏻

So I’ve always been a big girl. Tried to lose weight over and over again but nothing worked. Until I found this programme and lost 40kg in a year. Normal people would think this is great en maybe even love themselves, but I didn’t. To lose over 40kgs in just one year, was way too fast for my head. I hated every inche of my body, all the flappy skin and was constantly hiding my body in bigger/wider clothes. I even became seriously scared of putting on a bikini to go swimming (I never had that issue, not even at my biggest. I would still put on a bikini and have fun..).

Result: I gained 30 of the 40kgs back. I wanted to lose the weight again, but this time way more slow and on my own terms (not with a programme). The only positive thing I learned from losing all the weight before was learning I was strong enough to do this 💪🏻.

Well, something stopped my plans for weightloss: we wanted to try for a baby for the first time! In my head there was no way it would happen quickly, due to me being bigger. You can guess what a shock it was when I got my positive in the first month of trying! 🙈

Now I’m 18 weeks, 1 day pregnant and something beautiful happened this week: I looked in the mirror and loved myself. I love my ‘little’ growing belly and the way I seem to have a serieus natural waist for the first time in a while (could be I had this before though, but maybe I didn’t want to see it haha). Where I dressed myself in wide clothes when I lost all the weight, I now only want to wear thight clothes to show my figure. For me, this is just crazy..but I love it.

The picture below is me tonight, just before typing this insanely long story (sorry for that! 😅). Just had to share my story 💖