My husband has been so depressed I don’t know what to do. I am going to call a counselor tomarrow, but I just feel so sad and depressed. :(. It’s too much for me. Today I found him with a belt around his neck!?

He hated his job so he got another job , then that job was worse so he begged for his old job back and luckily was able to get it back thank god. But now he says he ruined his whole life from lieing to his old boss when he went to the job interview. He also says his old boss talks to the people at his new job and they all talk about how crazy he is. He thinks all the employees think he’s crazy. When we were grocery shopping he thought this guy that looked at him thought he was crazy. He thinks people at my work think he’s crazy . As if he’s center of everyones world. He’ll be really mean to me one minute and say this is all my fault, then the next minute be begging me to hug him. But the majority of the time he’s walking around shaking his head saying “I ruined my life” and “ahhh”. He literally says that constantly!!!

I make him dinner everyday. I clean up after him. I’m been so sympathetic, other times I’ve been stern but in a loving way. He’s so ungrateful for everything I do for him.

Oh yeah then. He’s made up several stories about how our landlord is going to kick us out, I talked to our landlord and it was a complete lie.

He thinks he’s going to get fired, so he had this weird heart to heart with his boss where he begged him not to fire him and apologized for leaving , its sooo weird. Today his boss had him picking up dog shit. It’s just so weird.

I don’t have family except my grandparents who are elderly (90s) and sick. I don’t have any close friends just acquaintances. I just think I’m going to have a break down any day because I can’t do this anymore. The last couple night I just was crying and begging him to stop, he hugged me and then talked more about himself and how it’s my fault and how hard he has it and I almost threw up I felt so sick, like no one is there for me, no family no friends no husband. Idk if I can do this anymore. Itsbeen over a month, we don’t even have sex, he always rejects me.

He was not like this before, we also had been trying to have a baby for over a year and I missed my Period I’m 15 days late so far and I got a false positive and now I took like 50 other tests all negative, so now I feel upset about that and a little relieved but at the same time his depression is affecting my body, all this stress is effecting my body and making me miss my period!!! :(

I also have been haveing panick attacks everyday where I think I’m dieing, but I have to pretend that I’m okay, so I just lay in bed and cry somtimes until I feel better and realize it was just a panic attack.

I’m tired of being an adult and taking care of him. Idk what to do. He has family and he acts like he’s not that depressed around them, his mom sent me a message about how I steal his money and force him to work. Lol. I baught him a car, phone everything, just to much right now. :( I I feel so alone :(

He tells me not to tell anyone. Anyone want to talk? Anyone been through this?