Just need to vent

Ashley • Avoiding pregnancy. 3 losses (6, 16, 15 weeks). 1 earth son, Lincoln born at 26 weeks. Just turned TWO & doing great!
I am so sick of my bum cervix. I am just so over this, I can't stand it. I can't handle not knowing if I will deliver to early and lose my baby or have him early and have severe disabilities etc. I almost wish I didn't even know things were in such bad shape because I am so stressed out. I just wanted to vent. I am tired of this.