so last night I went to a party with my best friend and her boyfriend than one of his friends came too bc they are in a band and had to perform there. i think it’s been a year or 2 years where they were trying to set me up with his friend even though we can see something wants too though but until yesterday after a long night of drinking until 5am and all of us having fun anyways things happen later on between us. after we left the after party, we stayed in the car talking out of his friends house, my best friend and i were gonna get an uber at around 6am but the guys were like just stay here and sleep a little, things were also happening to me and his friend during the parties, before we left and in the car but after being in the car for like an hour or so talking and what not. we all went in the same room at his friends house him and I in his bed then my best friend and her boyfriend on the floor. they fell asleep right away while we kept kissing and other things led to another of course, we both enjoyed it and what now. even my best friend and her boyfriend were trying to make it happen too.

now i feel bad bc besides that kinda wanting to happen, for the both of us we both wanted it and been talking. but i’m also talking to “someone” for a while now and were trying to become something serious but idk what to do I know I should tell him but i just can’t and I have fix feelings now I HATE ME 😭😭😭. then he knows about his guy *the one i was with last night* too so like FML RIGHT?

this is a first time i have to deal with this and i don’t like it