Idk if I'm making the right decision

Amber

I decided on birth control after losing my baby girl at 21 weeks Jan 12...but cannot take it until my next cycle. Which left me going through one more fertile cycle me and hubby decided not to use protection and that if it happens it happens. Now I'm scared that I'm not ready and I really may be pregnant. What am I thinking? I don't want to get too much older before having my last baby, will I even get anther baby? What if it's too soon?