Ten months ago I made the best decision of my life. I stopped using

Heroin and meth.

It wasn’t easy but I just took it slowly and I asked God to help me, an he did. You know it wasn’t until I reached my six month mark that I realized what I was giving up while I was using. That was I noticed how much I loved my children of corse that is a given. I knew that I loved them they knew it too but I didn’t realize that I had at some point stopped loving on them. Oh my gosh I can’t believe that I ever let that happen, I don’t know how long ago it stopped but it did.

I am so very very VERY thankful that I realized this when I did.

I immediately went to my children individually and just grabbed them and held them so tightly. In those long embraces I just loved them with everything that I had.

Now when I wake up in the morning I think of how it feels to be able to love them.

You want to know what I noticed from hugging them more every day,? They all have a new little twinkle in their eyes, and they are happier now.

I don’t ever want to lose that again