Well, I met a freshman back in August, we sat together in our Agriscience class and we hated each other. He was an annoying little douche bag. But he slowly grew on me even though we got on each other’s nerves. He’s been in elementary & secondary school all my life and I just had met him last year. Well finally I asked for his number bc I threatened to whoop his ass in cup pong.

Well after a week of me winning (and him claiming that he let me in) he started calling me babe as what I perceived as a joke just to get on my nerves. Come to find out he had a crush on me. I discovered myself that I had a huge crush on him too. We texted a lot. Despite his super strict mom, we even hung out and sent teasing pictures to each other. Nothing dirty just like a bra strap picture or a shirtless picture of him. Well we didn’t want anyone to know so we met up after class everyday and held hands and he would even grab my ass. We weren’t really sexual but it’s the most contact I’ve ever had with a boy or he’s ever had with a girl. This had been going on for 3 1/2 months now and no one knows.

We originally hated each other so there’s no way I could tell my friends that I found him attractive. But in our calls, after class, and in our texts he was super sweet. He even bought me a James Charles palette for my birthday which is Friday. But today I was heartbroken. He hadn’t messaged me all weekend. I didn’t really worry I just figured he was grounded or something or just busy. Well I went to check his Instagram like I normally do bc I like looking at him. I couldn’t find his account. He had blocked me. I tried messaged his number. Also blocked. I cried. Immediately. I’ve never had a boyfriend before and this absolutely tore me up. I don’t know how I’m gonna face him in class tomorrow without sobbing bc I’m figuring he’s done with me... any advice ?? He sits right beside me in class and my teacher isn’t gonna let me move seats. I’m really upset and I feel alone bc I can’t tell my mom nor my friends about my little love affair I had with him. I’m crushed:(( I know this is silly. He didn’t meet up with me today after class. We didn’t have an argument or anything before he left. I don’t know what I did wrong.