my boyfriend is now going to be 4,000 miles away in the middle of the ocean in alaska for 8 months...the amount of pain i’ve dealt with in just these last three days is unbearable...i don’t know how i can take 8 months i’m already shutting down emotionally...it’s driving my stir crazy and there’s nothing here to do for me to be occupied so now i have to deal with a constant pain and i just can’t cope i just want him here i just want him to be next to me...