Losing hope...

I had a miscarriage two months ago. K feel like crap because it seems like nothing I do will help me conceive.... I had an abortion about 5 years ago... I shouldn't have done it. Now of course I fault myself and kick myself because we want to have kids and it seems the universe is telling me no. I'm losing hope and giving up I just feel like it's never going to happen. I wanna crawl inna ball and just cry...