Anyone else just PARANOID?!

My son is one month old. From birth, I have been filled with anxiety. In the hospital, they heard a murmur, had to do an Echo-all was good.

Baby was also transitioning his breathing by nasal flaring, which alarmed the pediatrician but that got better before we got discharged.

At his 4 day check up, he had jaundice which had spread to his eyes. It has since gotten better & is gone completely. Thankfully.

One of his testicles has yet to completely drop as of his 4 day check up- it has dropped a little more.. which is cool. But omg, I’m still over here freaking out.

He has become increasingly congested sounding at some points throughout the day. Is it milk in his nose? Is it boogers? I try suctioning and not much comes out.

The kid is gassy as hell. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WRONG?

His head feels weird, is it in my head? Or is something wrong? LOL. Newborns heads are still forming, so it’s bound to feel a little weird, right? 🤔😓

His abdomen has a weird “ridge” right down the middle.. I read this is from the abdominal muscles not completely fusing together yet. I HATE DR. GOOGLE.

I keep scrolling on the popular page on Instagram & see all of the posts about sick babies, a one month old with cancer, all kind of horrible shit & I wanna cry. Why do I keep doing this myself?!

I stare at my son & want to break down at the thought of something being wrong...

And in the back of my head... I know he is healthy. He eats well, poops, pees, is alert... suffers from newborn gas, but hey, what baby doesn’t.

When will this anxiety end? I don’t remember feeling like this with my first. 😭😭😭😭