I finally understand why my sister in law doesnt want to have a shower. I told my side of the family about the baby. They are so happy and excited they are already buying baby stuff. Clothes, bottles, bassinets, ect. It's a lil overwhelming for me. I think it's too early for all of this but they dont. N with us losing Camren (my miscarriage baby) I'm on edge. Every day I'm checking for nausea n sore boobs. Every time I pee I'm looking for blood. Every time I walk past the mirror I look at my stomach. I'm scared n I'm worried. That miscarriage has taken all the fun and excitement away for me in this pregnancy. I'm not depressed, bc I know what that's like for me but I'm sad. Sometimes I wonder why do I get to keep this baby n not my first? It's so frustrating.