Can’t orgasm with my partner!!!!

My boyfriend and I have been together for 6 years this upcoming October. We have a great relationship. We have our rough patches, which is expected in a long term relationship. We started dating when I was 13, he was 14. Now we’re 19 and 20. I plan to marry this guy and genuinely care about him more than anything.

I was 16 when we first had sex. Between 16 and now (19), I have not orgasmed one time with him. The sex is great, but I just can’t orgasm. I can make myself orgasm, but he can’t make me orgasm. I’ve never had the heart to tell him because it would upset him.

I love him immensely, and this doesn’t get in the way of that or even cause us problems. I just wanna know what others think.

SORRY IF ITS TMI but..

I know I have days where I can be aroused and won’t get wet. And almost every time we have sex, it initially starts off painful, and then eases into pleasure. I don’t know if that’s normal.

I also hate to actually stick my fingers “in there.” To me it just feels weird. I tried using a toy, but it’s so tight and tense down there that my dildo will actually “pop out” and I have to fight with it to go back in.

I dont know if this is a medical problem. I’m not necessarily worried about it. I’m just wondering what others think of this situation.