April 19th will be mine and my bf's 6 months... I honestly dont feel like that's an accomplishment because it feels like I need more time with him if that makes sense lol. One part of me thinks that but I'm so lost. I've known him since we were two. Weve been best friends and I love that we are so close. But the feelings I have for him dont feel real.. I guess. With my ex, idk if it's because he took my virginity and me and my current bf havent done anything bc we wanna wait till marriage so I felt closer to my ex or what. But I dont care if me and my current bf text, and the thought of us breaking up doesnt make me upset at all which is weird to me? Shouldnt that break my heart? It sure did with my ex? And by no means do I want my ex back, my current bf treats me like a literal princess.. that's why I'm so confused. I just dont get excited with him like I do when I would talk to other guys in the past?