Trying

So me and my partner have decided we are going to start trying to have kids. It feels super weird and I'm genuinely worried. I know that I'm very, and I mean VERY fertile, but doctors have told me I'm more likely to become depressed and possibly lose the baby. I'm a gay trans man just to clear it up a bit. The doctors have me questioning if we really should try and it's making me upset thinking about it, especially since this could be my only chance since I'm not on T yet...has anyone else gone through this?