My sons birthday is coming up and there’s been so much going on that I’m not used to at all and it makes me feel so depressed. Part of me (almost all of me) wants to go to a aquarium far away, buy a cake and just enjoy us time just me and his dad. The other part makes me want to suck up my personal problem cause they’re not his problem and have a party at home with his cousins (he loves playing with his cousins). Either way I know he will have fun. The best option right now is the aquarium, I just hate being selfish even in the toughest times but sometimes you have to be ( and I say that towards family not my baby boy). Hard times pass with patience.