I didn’t want to do this. I was trying to not get pregnant, but it happened. I was pressured into keeping the baby. I trusted everyone else more than myself. Now, I am miserable and I don’t know what to do. I’m already seeing a therapist. Doesn’t help much. I hate mom groups. Everyone is so fake and it just exacerbates the problem of feeling like all I am is a mom. The father is helpful and I get breaks at night and on weekends, but I still just hate my life. I just don’t know what to do. I’ve brought up adoption, but the father won’t do it. I’ve thought about leaving, but I don’t want to be a single mom. I don’t want to abandon my son and leave him with his father for his sake, but I’ve honestly thought about it. I used to be truly happy. I used to wake up just so grateful and ready to take on the day. I used to be absolutely unstoppable. Everyone liked me. I just radiated joy. Now, it’s the complete opposite. I wish I was being young in school just enjoying life. I feel like I have no good option. Whatever way you slice it, I don’t see how I’m ever going to be happy again. I’m either going to be drowning taking care of a baby I wasn’t ready for or in agony with the guilt for leaving him with his father. My son is almost 13 months. I can’t do this. My days are mediocre at best. So many days I feel like I just can’t. I’m so angry for being pressured into this. Has anyone been through this???