Reoccurring Relationship Issues

So i’ve been in 4 relationships in my high school career (4 quarter junior woo!) and every time they have ended because I didn’t want to have sex and felt pressured to “satisfy him.” I’m a virgin and I do want to have sex at some point during high school but I don’t want to rush into it, do it, then get left on my butt because it wasn’t good for him or something.

I hate that this has happened FOUR TIMES! I feel like there is something wrong with me and the way I go about my relationships. They get so personal and so sexual in the span of a 2 months and I feel like I screw up all of my relationships because of this small thing that keeps happening.