I’m pretty sure this is probably PPD kicking in. Everyone prepared me for how hard things would get but no one told me it’d be super unbearable hard. My son is completely spoiled and I fucking hate it not because of me because of my mom and siblings the never put him down literally NEVER so now he hates his crib, rocker and anything that isn’t a human body. Of course they don’t care because they don’t have to deal with his crying 24/7 if he gets put down he screams bloody murder I can’t do anything without him. I’ve tried to put him on a sleeping schedule which worked for a week he’d sleep most of the day stay awake for 5 hours then sleep all night. Now he sleeps all day and stays awake all night and screams because once’s again he hates being put down his schedule got ruined. Tonight I feel so freaking drained he won’t stop crying and I feel like I need to just shut the door and let him cry. I love my son so dearly but tonight I want to shake him and give up. I don’t want to be a mom anymore I just want to give him up. I don’t know why I feel this way I truly don’t I’ve been so unattached to him I don’t want to hold him, change him or anything I just want him away from me. Doesn’t help that my husband hasn’t had to deal with any of this because he’s 3,000 miles away for work.