I don’t even know anymore

We aren’t telling anyone we’re ttc. The only person I can talk to this about right now is my husband which is fine generally, but he’s getting annoyed and doesn’t want to talk about it. I’m four days late as of today. We’re pretty sure I’m not pregnant so every time I suggest testing he gets impatient. We have cheap dollar tree tests and we have the more expensive first response tests. He wants to save the first response tests for next time. I want to wait a week and then test with them. But no, that’s a waste of money to him. Not to mention if we don’t find out what’s going on soon, I may have to go to a doctor and find out, he’s very against that too as someone may find out we’re ttc and he doesn’t want to “deal with it”. So I’m stuck in a weird limbo where I can’t be nervous, excited, impatient or anything else until he wants to be. It’s tiresome.