Anyone else feel down

Like they won’t be able to conceive a healthy rainbow baby / have a healthy pregnancy? How you were robbed of happiness? How if even if you are lucky to see 2 pink lines again all you can picture is all the fear that you will endure? How you’d be scared to even announce to the world that your pregnant? Anyone else feel sooo angry when they see others on social media announcing they are expecting or just having friends or family that casually talk about when they are ready to conceive, etc?? Feeling so lonely and defeated and beyond terrified. Hope I’m not alone 😭