AF is due today

It’s been 5 months since our 6 weeks miscarriage. It took 6 months to get pregnant that first time.

I tested early the past few days and only got negatives. I woke up this morning with cramps and lower back pain but no AF yet.

I had no symptoms when I found out I was pregnant last time. I know AF will show today but I can’t help being hopeful that it doesn’t. I hope it’s just those cramps and no bleeding that so many people talk about in early pregnancy.

Feeling defeated but trying to remain optimistic. I wish getting pregnant was easier 😫