I have been feeling so bad about myself lately and seriously emotionally distressed. I am fat. I have been telling myself that and it sank deep.

I don’t like what I see in the mirror. I don’t like how I look at myself. I feel ugly. I feel unloved. I feel unworthy.

So I have questioned myself if it is all about my weight that killing me inside. I still found no answer after 3 months.

I am not lazy. I am just not driven. I just had dinner and I wanted to purge, but I know I shouldn’t. I have conflicting feelings about all these and it is making things harder for me.

I deactivated my facebook and instagram and twitter and every social media application that I have.

I feel ugly. Deep in me, I feel ugly. I look ugly and I keep telling myself that, though I know I shouldn’t.

I know that I should be more kind to myself. I am not.

Again, I feel ugly. 😔