Ok so im posting this situation on here because i really need some advice even though im pretty sure im going to hear the same as i do from friends and family so ive been in a relationship with my man 6 years yes i do love him yes i want to start a family with him im 28 hes 50 i know he adores me i do im not easy i have to admit but when i drink or he drinks thats the only time problems start and we end up arguing and he hits me 6 years of abuse on and off and it only keeps getting worse more blood bigger bruises more pain in the heat of the fighting i honestly think hes foing to kill me yes i dont even fight back never have i just sit there and take it i have dated ive tried meeting other people tried even a couple other relationships while we've been seperated and i mean when i say nobody really has been my cup of tea i mean it because i always end up coming back to him i never thought i would put up with a man putting his hands on me amd i never thought i would do what i did a couple weeks ago we got into a huge fight i mean my face was all bruised i was full of blood he disnt want to give me my car keys so i called my mom he got scared really quick because he knows she doesn't play that s*** she heard enough to maje her call the police they came and arrested him because he had a warrant and i was gone in the car before the police got there i was hurt again i was super intoxicated i ended up seeing a guy that i had already slept with on numerous occasions mind you i confessed to my man everyone i have ever been with throughout all our breakups boom it happens again when he gets out of jail the next couple of days he grabs my phone and starts looking through it and finds the guys number and a text he confronts me and i look at him and i sat the truth thats one thing i keep it blood raw all the time even if it hurts and omg what was that for end of the world drama.com point is we're still together in the same house same bed still babe this and that still having sex but he saids he does not want to be with me that i should be with this other guy because it seems like i love him if i keep going back to him im trying to make him understand that every time anything happened with me and the other guy it was like a revenge thing to get back at him because they know eachother and they never liked eachother never got along i didnt meet the other guy until 6 years ago when i met him and if i wanted to be with him i would i dont plzzzz hellppppp