I'm torn about what to do.

I really, really want a surprise, but my other half will not stop asking me to find out.

Apparently the pregnancy is all about me 🤷🏼‍♀️

Bare in mind he already has 2 boys and a girl, I feel sticking to my guns isn't going to do him any harm.

I asked him so if you find out and not me, I'd want you to keep it to yourself and no-one else is to know.

His response if I want to tell my Mum, I'll tell my Mum.

This is where I explained that I feel it's morally wrong for every 'Tom, Dick and Harry' to know what I'm carrying and myself not know.

It's also risking it coming back to me because someone will slip up somewhere along the line.

I just know it'll break my heart if he slips up or worse still someone else tells me because word has gotten around.

A prime example, my neighbour works with his Dad, would only take him to see me coming home or leave the house and say 'Heard you're having a boy/girl'

Am I really wrong for wanting a surprise. I only want the one child so it's not like I'll ever have the chance again. 😔

Am I being selfish?