I’m not in love with my boyfriend anymore. We have been together for nearly 5 years. I love him and care for him but I’m not in love. I realised this in September last year.

I started to talk to somebody online. We would talk on and off over a few months, with the last contact being middle of December last year.

We started to talk again 5 days ago. We finally met on Sunday evening. We started with small talk. Then out of nowhere he very romantically pulled me in to kiss me. Before I knew it we were in a very passionate game of tonsil tennis. Except it wasn’t that gross. And one thing lead to another.

He also has a girlfriend.

We have no connection in the real world. It’s impossible for us to get caught because his girlfriend is at university and I’m very social so I’m always going out and 90% of my friends are male so my boyfriend isn’t intimidated by other men with me. I only told one friend that I’m planning on meeting this guy. But I didn’t expect what happened to happen.

I know I’m going to get judged for this. I used to be the one who judged anybody who cheated. Get rid, not worth your time. But now I’ve done it myself and have been cheated on by my current boyfriend, I realise you don’t always know somebody’s situation.