I’m Getting Help

I broke up with my boyfriend of two years in the end of January. I met someone who I immediately clicked with about a week after. We went on dates and got together and have been dating since February ninth and I feel great with him. But immediately, he found it a little bit difficult to be around because of my negative outlook on life. I wanted to fix it because I didn’t know how my mental health could affect my relationships I have with people. Since then, I’ve made an appointment to see a therapist about my mental disorders. Since I was little I can remember going through periods of my life when I felt so sad for no reason and eventually just getting used to it. I self diagnosed myself with anxiety and depression because I was always too scared to talk to someone about it and i was ashamed of having something wrong with me. I realized that this is not a solution. I was so scared to make the first move but my current boyfriend is so supportive of me. He offered to walk me to my first appointment with someone to talk about my issues and I’m going next Tuesday. Since I met my current boyfriend, I’ve been thinking a lot and acknowledging what I find to be off about myself. I’m going to go into a psychologist and tell them that I have reason to believe that I have depression, anxiety, ADHD, and bipolar disorder. It is genetic in my family and the majority of my relatives struggle with some type of mental disorder. I am happy to say that I am finally getting help for the things that I need help with. Gone are the days that I brush my feelings under the rug and pretend that I don’t have anything wrong with me. It can only go up from here :)