I loved you. I don't know if you loved me too. But what we felt; what we talked about. I know you had feelings for me. Life put us together more than once and all the times we met, not one of them was the time we were ready to be us. I know you had feelings for me. You said you felt stuck in your life. And we had a conversation one night about how it wasn't our time. But maybe one day years from now, when we're old, then maybe just maybe it would be our time. We had to let go of each other. We had to stop. And it hurt. You were my best friend. You felt like my soulmate. But alas we couldn't be together.i have an amazing husband now and I love him

and our beautiful family. But every once in a while a song comes on. And I sing it so passionately. I hope my husband doesn't figure out why there is so much hurt and love behind my voice. You are the one that got away. And I hope you are happy with your life. What I would give just to talk to. I hope you remember me. Because I've never forgotten you, Rice.

Song im referencing is by taylor swift - Wildest dreams

- Loving him is red