I really want to give up😓why is it so hard !

Soo this morning I clean my self and it was pink and I was like omg implantation it’s happening!! So happy, I’m not due for my period until March 26.... but then I had sex with my husband and after sex I noticed blood and went to check and it looks like an early period 😓😓😓 no baby this month and it my birthday month 😭😭 look at my cycle its way offf 😭😭😭